I m going to MAD soon!!!

I keep confusing Wat should I study...
I scare if I study form 6 den I can't catch up but it is free... If I study form 6 den I have to follow skul rules... I have to go tuition Samo...
I scare if I study a level den if I can't score den I feel like throwing the money to Klang river... But I wan feel college life..
So how??
Wat choice should I choose??
Between a level n form 6??
The most I scare is HARD...
So
So
How??
Any idea please❤❤❤